Jan Denise
Jan Denise
chance deal familiar feeling felt fully glad happy recognize second sooner third wondering
I am here again, in a familiar place feeling something I've felt before, wondering why it's still here, why I didn't deal with it more fully before. But I'm glad I have a second chance at it ... and I know that if I need a third chance, I'll get it. I also know that if it comes up again, I'll recognize it sooner and deal with it more readily. This is growth. And, I am happy to be alive.
believe contribute life love
I am sometimes disappointed, but I love my life ... and I must believe that the disappointments contribute something to what I love.
best determination expecting fine line somebody
There can be a fine line between determination to see the best in somebody and expecting him to change.
beauty inside love
Love really does make everything beautiful, from the inside out.
ability accepting ahead equally friend lesson struck timely today truth
I was struck today with a realization that a friend had way ahead of me. I was equally struck by his ability to live his truth while still accepting me as I was ...a timely lesson for Jan.
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I've been getting rid of some clutter anything that doesn't serve a positive purpose in my life and making room for things that feel happy to me. Because I get to make my life whatever I want it to be. I get to make the room feel however I want it to feel. I get to make the closet as full or as spacious as I want it. And, if I have more clutter to get rid of after Christmas, I'm not going to wait a year, or two or three to do it.
closet clutter full happy however life positive purpose rid room serve three wait whatever
I've been getting rid of some clutter ù anything that doesn't serve a positive purpose in my life ù and making room for things that feel happy to me. Because I get to make my life whatever I want it to be. I get to make the room feel however I want it to feel. I get to make the closet as full or as spacious as I want it. And, if I have more clutter to get rid of after Christmas, I'm not going to wait a year, or two or three to do it.
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Somewhere along the line I decided that if I had something or did something that maybe it wasn't so great after all. I don't believe that anymore, but I realized today that in some areas I still act as though I do. I won't anymore. Smile. Sigh. Smile.
keeps less quest
Sometimes less is more. Our quest for more, then, keeps us from it.
bed bit breathed clean dirty earth enjoy feels fresh help hungry love maybe thinking warm
As I was snuggling back into my bed after getting up to use the bathroom, I breathed a little, ""This must be like heaven."" I love my bed. I love the ""ahh"" that comes with getting warm and smelling fresh sheets. I also love how it feels to get clean when I'm dirty and eat when I'm hungry. So, I'm thinking that maybe we still get cold, and dirty, and hungry in heaven. And, that's going to help me enjoy getting cold, and dirty, and hungry in earth (or in this body) just a little bit more.
accept anytime based coming committed consequences following god longer looking means natural peace reasonable somebody trusting truth walking whatever
Anytime I am looking to somebody else as my source, I'm coming from scarcity. I am no longer trusting God, or the Universe, for my harvest. It's reasonable for me to have expectations based on what somebody I trust has committed to. And it's natural for me to feel disappointed when that somebody doesn't come through. But when I feel more than disappointment, when I also feel anger, it's because I deviated from my truth. It's because I compromised my truth to get what somebody else promised. Because when I'm really following my truth, I will be at peace with the consequences ù whatever they are. I can accept somebody else's truth, but I must live my own truth. And sometimes that means walking away from a relationship.
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When I'm tempted to do something that feels like giving up, I won't ... because love doesn't give up (I Corinthians, 13). But, lest I push love aside, I will make sure that what I'm holding on to can coexist with love.
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When I'm not afraid to fail, I wont. When I'm not afraid to fall down, falling down won't feel like failure. I have fallen down enough to get more comfortable with it, to know how productive it can be, how necessary it is to growth. Still, when I sense the ground beneath me giving way, I have to remind myself that it's OK if I falter. I have to remind myself that it's more than OK!
busy concern lack needed pushing time tough
I needed his lack of concern for the insignificant as much as he needed my mindfulness. But I had a tough time getting it ... I was busy pushing my mindfulness, and he was unconcerned about pushing anything.